That's that good sh!t

Lately, it’s been hard for me to believe in God. That’s a very bold thing to say, but it’s true. People always tell me, “Just trust God, he has a plan for you. Everything happens for a reason”. All that is just starting to sound like crap to me. What IS Gods plan for me? What does he have in store for me? Haven’t I gone through enough? Believe in God, they say. But I’m not getting anything to believe in.

But I still do have a sense for God. He has blessed me with things. Like my friends. But it seems to me that this blessing comes with a curse.

I guess what I’m trying to say is, I believe in God, but my belief in him is dying, sad to say. The word “God” is starting to sound more like a weapon to me than something to lift you up when you’re down.